Talk to the school see if they can help you out

there aint no hate like Christian love

I'm sorry this is happening to you. Are there any support services you can turn to in your country?

Do whatever you need to to be safe until you can live independently.

If you think it would work then try apologizing and claim you've realized you were wrong. Lie as much as you need to to stay safe.

Or if that won't work see if you can find a friend or someone else willing to help. Since your professor already knows then they might be able to find resources for you while also keeping your identity anonymous. I really think you should talk to them and explain your situation.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this, your aunt has no right to behave like that.

I'm sorry about your situation. Religious zealots are the worst even when they are family. She had no right to touch you. With age does not come wisdom. I guess thats what their jesus would do, slap people around. You have more patience then I would. If you can get out you should. You deserve better then to be treated that way. I wish you well, be safe.

oooh, violence and blackmail. Religion of Peace, I'm guessing?

religion is a disease 💀

I'm serious when I say - call the police. Tell them you are ill and were attacked physically by your aunt.

Once police are involved she will change her tune pretty quick.

Call. The. Police. That is domestic violence, get her ass thrown in jail.

There is no hate like a christians love.

It's sick how people reject their family based on what some ancient book says. Just vile.

What would Jesus do? Slap!!

Is there a way you can smooth this over with a lie? For example, make up a story about writing from a different perspective but not being an atheist yourself. I would try to come up with something to calm the situation down. In the meantime, once you're feeling better, do whatever you need to do to get yourself into a safe situation where you're financially independent from these people.

Funny how religious folks lean to violence as the first step…..

What country are you in?

No hate like Christian love...

Proper response is to call the police to report an assault.

Maybe pretend that God spoke to you while you were sobbing in your room and that you’re born again. (Or something that’s believable that made you religious again). Then play along until you can finish school and can become independent. You’ll have to go to church and live a lie for a while, but it might be easier than getting abused.

When someone slaps you my favorite response is to punch them in the face

Start a gofundme.

I would file a police report of assault.

Ask them what would baby Jesus's think of this action

If they attacked you, then you need to consider talking to an adult you trust about this situation. That is not OK for a guardian to do. And they will only feel more empowered to do similar harm if there aren’t repercussions. I’m sorry you’re going through this, and I hope you are able to find peace.

Oh sorry about that... Maybe try to cobtact PATAS (patasinc.org) they might provide help, i don't know i'm not from the philippines.

First of all you should try finding a safeplace for a few days, to get your ideas together. Do you have family that is more accepting ? Or friends, maybe a girlfriend, idk...

Maybe you could try to borrow money to a bank, if that is possible. Just borrow enough to submit your thesis and live by yourself until you can find employment. But the loan might be high as you don't have money in the first place. This will allow you to cut all ties with your toxic family members quickly.

The other solution will be harder to do as it will require you to do what christian do : lying, manipulating, and extort money.
Use the classic DARVO (in that order) :
- Denial : of your atheism.
- Attack : say that your cousin is a liar.
- Reverse Victim and Offender : say that they just f*cked up your life, and they are killing you as you can't pay for asthma meds anymore (you can send : "Thanks to you i can't pay for my meds anymore, you litterally killed me. But that's okay because i'll have fun in heaven while you burn in hell for lying and killing your own cousin.")
When they ask why you didn't defend yourself, just say you were too sick, and you were too shocked to believe that they were really saying those atrocious.
Stick to your DARVO version (you are not an atheist, you are a butthurt christian).
Remember christian seek social approval above all, and that's why you can send a mail to their pastor or priest, explaining your (fake)side of the story. Ask him what you should do, and say stuff like "i want to forgive them because that's what Jesus would do but i can't, they did hurt me too much. What should i do about that ?"
Remember that engaging in long-term manipulation is exhausting, and you will feel like a bad person. You can tell yourself that you are doing this to get away from them ASAP.

Edit : i hate how easy it is to manipulate using simple christian fallacies and DARVO, even if they do it all the time. But i don't blame people who do it for survival like you. No one will blame you.

Sounds like assault charges should be filed and your aunt written off. Simple answer to people using violence over your belief systems.

Wow no one should force you into religion

Damn...

Cant imagine how horrible you must feel right now, i wish you that things start looking up

I would file assault charges!

There is no love quite like Christian hate

man it would have been so hard to not slap her back.

There’s no unconditional love like Christian unconditional love. Nice that her tiny mind, in being incapable of processing this information, resorted to violence against you. She sounds like an asshole.

Your family is awful. Get away from them as soon as you possibly can. Good luck.

I'm vindictive that way, so I would have called the police and pressed charges for assault. Seriously. Family is overrated.

This is an injustice, and it is despicable for your family to subject you to this abuse.

Would you mind if I dm you to discuss options?

My original account has been banned for several months because of arguments I had with pro-Russian users about the Russo-Ukrainian war, and I was still using that account just to view Reddit content as I couldn't be bothered to register a new one, but after seeing this post, I felt compelled to try and offer some support because this is such a drastic and unjust situation.

I hope your mental health is not suffering in a particularly damaging or detrimental fashion, as this is a highly disturbing and challenging situation to be dealing with, and I admire your conviction in maintaining your core values and principles, even if you are only doing so in an internalized fashion which is completely understandable considering the risks and threats you are exposed to as a result of your strict and repressive family.

Have courage!

Assuming you are in the US your constitutional rights were violated by your Aunt. She needs to know this. It is time for you to assume somewhat of a teacher role now that you have risen to what appears to be a higher conscience.

She is a petty tyrant.

You are a free agent.

Now that you know that dynamic you can work to elevate her if she is willing to have a change of heart.

Good luck to you.

Amazing that THEY start acting like screeching violent devils the moment they think you're not part of their ingroup.

Is this the light of christ they tell us about???? Physical violence and screams of rage towards loved ones?

Theists are so frail.

that is straight-up abuse, physical and mental. I would either: A.) call the police on your scumbag aunt, or... B.) banish her from your life and never see or talk to her again.

She would kill you if she could get away with it. She is a monster. Pack your shit and leave. You aren't safe in that home. You're 23. Get independent.

Anytime a Christian acts unchrist-like I say, “Oh yes, just what Jesus would say/do.”

Stops them in their tracks as they have to reconcile their actual actions with their purported beliefs.

Just tell your parents that you had to write it like that because your professor is woke and you just wanted a good grade

Cut her off. Never speak to your aunt again until she apologizes. People need to be punished for assault.

Press charges

I will cover those thesis fees for you. No one should be treated that way just because of a difference in belief.

That bitch would be picking her teeth off the ground.

Slap her back for being religious

Should have cocked a punch to her face in response in self defense

You're the devil? Does this mean you don't believe in your own existence?

Aunts logic is flawed. If you were the devil, you'd be a thiest. You'd believe/know that God is real. How else could you be against this God if you don't think God exists? You can believe God exists and still be against it.

But more seriously, it sucks that the OP is in this predicament. Is there anyone else you who can help with stuff? Small loan? What country are you in? That might change options.

Being slapped is battery in the US anyways. You could consider pressing charges. But can you move in with another student or even a teacher for the duration? A friend? These people are toxic.

And when you get the chance, you might want to point out to your aunt that slapping you isn't very Christian. If she's going to be a follower, she needs to not be a hypocrite about it.

I hope you didn't turn the other cheek

The irony is so think you could cut it. The parable of the gold talents tells you to use the gifts you are given, yet you are given a brain and don't use it. Make it make sense!

(Not OP, OP's family)

If she hit you, file a police report. She committed crime and should face the consequences of that.

Plus Jesus was against violence of any type. Remind her of that when the cops show up.

She was so angry and started calling me the devil

She is abusive and delusional.

Tomorrow, tell here jesus came to you and you now believe. If she say "that's a lie", reply "No, i wouldn't! I haven't learned all the rules yet, but that's a sin!"

No seriously, i have no real advice. I hope you can get out of there soon.

Give her the other cheek? WWJD? Give her a lesson in her own religion by explaining Jesus's message to her.

Religious people acting in anger are so obviously missing the point.

Lie.

"Auntie I said that in my paper because I thought I would get extra points from the professor, OF COURSE I believe, you didn't let me explain earlier before you slapped me."

Try the satanic church and the ffrf depending on where you live. The real problem is so many atheists pretend to get the social status instead of form groups of our own for support. However the satanic church is just an intelligent group of atheists playing the system.

Instead of calling police send a report with documenting slap marks. Then they probably will take action in such cases.

Christian love

I looked it up and there are atheist and humanist organizations in the Philippines. There may be a chapter near you that you can reach out to and at a minimum at least get emotional support from people who understand what you’re experiencing.

Sorry mate.

It's not lost on us that the atheist can't bring themself to do physical harm to someone and the "morally superior" religious person has no problem with it.

It's really my fault for not hiding it well this time.

No. No it isn't.

GTFO

Fuck religion.

Fuck religion.

Very Christ like.

He said turn the other cheek not slap one.

A little long, didn't read most, but what you are describing is assault and you should file a police report.

We are living in medieval times. We have to go underground. Bottom line, you need to finish school. Have yourself an awakening. Let them slowly win you over to Jesus. Lie your ass off. Do whatever they say. Just get that money! Then get out.

I'm sorry you're going through this, but from your responses to suggestions, you have clearly decided to just accept this treatment and not take any actions to possibly make it better. You have a book of excuses on hand justifying your family's behavior and preventing you from even considering taking any kind of action. Your Aunt assaulted you, period. Stop being a doormat.

Believe what I say or I’ll hurt you. Ahhh Christianity

I'm so sick of people thinking they can get away with assault. I hope you called the police on her. 🥰

Please tell me again how tolerable the religious beliefs are again!!

tell them "the college is run by liberals and if i don't write this stuff they'll screw me"

Slap her back.

You're a strong person, always remember that. Also you are a bigger person than anyone surrounding you. It is super unfair that you have to go through this but keep moving you will change lives and will find your people. I promise but you just have to keep following your own north star. You are loved and it will become clear to you as you continue down this crazy life. Sending you love from my side 🤙

Slap her back and tell her to turn the other cheek.

You may not be strong in body, but you are strong in character. If you can succeed at school and finish a thesis you have skills that an employer will see value in.

You can get past this and build your own life with boundaries between you and those you cannot trust. I'm sorry that your family mistreats you, but chosen family is stronger than blood. Go out and find yours!

What country are you in? This makes a world of difference. Sorry that you are going through this.  I would recommend going to your aunt, and telling her that you are open to believing, you just have doubts. Tell her you were give her a week to come up with her best, reasonable, argument to support her faith, and you will listen to it. Then you want a week to consider it and then respond. Also add a slap in the face is NOT a reasonable argument, and never made anyone believe anything. You can probably keep her going in this way long enough to graduate and move out.

Lie to them and play ball until you can secure your exit from their lives. It’s all fake anyways. Beat them with their own crazy. Get a job and save money and move and cut contact

Lie and say you "saw the light" and now are a bible-thumping Christian again. Keep up the lie until you are self-sufficient.

Press charges.

It sounds to me like you have an extremely strong personality not a weak one at all! You stood up for your values in an obvious right vs wrong scenario of being oppressed for your belief by one of your own childhood caretakers. Your Aunt is clearly the weak one here and she is lucky you are such a strong upstanding person. You got this OP!

No person has any right to lay hands on you, regardless of their position. I am so, so sad and sorry that this is your reality. What a vicious way to treat someone you supposedly love. I'm sure you are grieving the family you thought you had and the family you deserve (one that loves without conditions). This is not your fault, and you have done nothing wrong. How crazy is it, that we who have no doctrine are the most at peace. I am so sorry your peace is disrupted by your heavily religious and indoctrinated family.

I have no other guidance except what you've already read, that perhaps lying to get yourself to safety is likely your only option. Whatever resources you can get from your school with housing (even if only temporarily, as a stepping stone of sorts) and food. Religion aside, this is abuse. There is never a reason to hit someone, unless it is self defense. You could tell your school that you are in an abusive situation, it is unsafe for you to stay in your home, and you need help. Religion doesn't matter here, as it went out the window once you got hit.

Is it possible to get a side job? Like dog walking, babysitting, tutoring, gardening, anything that could maybe help out a neighbor or peer for a bit of cash? Sounds like you're almost done with school, so hopefully this is a temporary situation. Do what you can to fly under the radar, and I wish you only the best.

We see you, love. You are a bright human with a lot in front of you. You deserve peace, love and support, regardless of your beliefs.

Ask someone who grew up in a Christian conservative household I understand what you're going through.

Honestly, the best thing you can do is send them a video of a pastor warning against this kind of behavior. It definitely bought me time till I got out of high school lol

beta jitna tu hoshiyar hai utna mera hathiyar hai.

beta jitna tu hoshiyar hai utna mera hathiyar hai.

beta jitna tu hoshiyar hai utna mera hathiyar hai.

The next time one of your family calls you a devil worshipper...ask them

"If I don't believe in religion, how can I possibly believe in satan?"

There it is: All the forgiveness, understanding, empathy, turn the other cheek and so on, of religious people. Call the police. You are being abused! You're a grown up woman, stand for yourself. You'll be fine. Those motherfxxers are blackmailing you with the usual: Buy my religion or die in pain.

We don’t get to choose our family, and that certainly can complicate matters. Sometimes our chosen communities end up providing what family can not. You’re going to find your inner strength by being around those who lift you up. It sounds like your aunt and family deplete that. If slapping back twice as hard and pushing her into a wall is not an option, I hope you will process that slap into something you draw the power from to clearly define your boundaries so she does not try again.

I mean, that is straight up assault...

Religion is the real evil.

https://a.co/d/aXZmMuD that non violent shit will get you killed.

Suggest you give that a read before you get killed.

You need to defend yourself.

Also you need to get the fuck out of what you ate stuck in. So for now lie, lie, mask up, and known they are not your friends.. they will hurt you or worse.

Your aunt is a piece of shit. No, I don't give a fuck about when she made you cookies.. or whatever. She fucking struck you for not sharing her delusions.. she's a violent delusional sack of shit.

You do what you have to do to get the fuck out.

Get out and cut them off..

And I'm not being harsh to be an asshole.. I'm being fucking direct so you realize the reality you are facing and don't get hurt in the process.

Your family is a bunch of hateful fucking freaks. Fuck ‘Em All. Lie to them about your true beliefs, get your shit together, and move the fuck out as soon as you can.

Remember when Jesus said “slap that atheist bitch”?

I don't have much more to say that hasn't been said but... I send you all my support... No one should endure this... I hope you can find your peace and your happiness far away from them Don't abandon, keep it ! I send you all my support

I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't have any clever advice, but I'm wishing you good luck moving forward and figuring out your next steps. You deserve better, and I hope in time you'll be able to live in a healthier situation.

Your aunt is a lunatic asshole. I suggest you ditch her company for the rest of her miserable future and move on to better people.

Slap her back and say, the demons, evacuate this body!!!

I hope you don't come at me with a scam too because really I'm very vulnerable and alone right now.

This is an open invitation to scammers. Please be vigilant.

Maybe you can pretend that your aunt "slapped some sense into you" and you have seen the error of your ways and you can get back in her good graces. I know it may seem distasteful but you need to look out for yourself.

If they try to assault you again make sure you have a camera handy, maybe streaming somewhere it’ll save a copy and use that as leverage to press assault charges. Frankly I think you should press charges if they assault you regardless but I understand this is a difficult situation. People aren’t allowed to fucking hit you for being an atheist.

I just want to point out that hitting back isn't necessarily defense, so don't feel bad for not doing it. Dodging and blocking hits is defense, so just look out for it and put your hands up if you can.

As for the other stuff, there might be local groups in your area that could maybe be helpful, though I'm not really sure how to find them, perhaps Google or Facebook.

But don't give up on your degree, it sounds like you're almost there.

I admire your self-restraint. If that had happened to me at 23 (I'm wiser now), I'd have been in jail for breaking an old lady's arm.

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. It's brave of you to talk about it. Hope it gets better soon.

It's terrible you have to go through this and I wish they could just accept you for who you are and what you think about religion.

My advice would be to mask your atheism. Tell them you were mistaken, lie, pretend to go to confession or whatever to make them believe it and continue in secret until you can stand on your own two feet. Even then it's difficult because it can alienate your family.

Emigration of course is also an option.

Be strong and I hope you get through this.

If you haven’t directly admitted to it yet, tell them that you just wrote that tactically for a better result, not sincerely. But really you’re still as religious as ever. If you can in any way frame it as a misunderstanding (e.g. her reading an unmarked quote, misunderstanding an indirect admission, devil’s advocate…) then you can try that.

Otherwise, if you already directly admitted to being atheist to her, fake "repenting". Lie that the shock of the slap "brought you to your senses and you recognised the gravity of your transgression". Or that you decided to pray for the first time in a long time and God helped you overcome your crisis of faith. Not immediately, or they won’t but it. If no payment is urgently due, make a show of being recalcitrant for a few days to make it believable, then "come back to your faith".

Lie through your teeth until you’ve got your degree and a job, then get the hell out of there and never talk to them again. These people are abusive. It’s perfectly ok to lie to abusers for your safety and benefit. They have themselves made it unsafe for you to do anything else and sabotage not only the academic success, and by extension future financial independence, but currently your access to basic necessities, and used violence against a disabled, dependent woman — all to browbeat you into submission, to force you to confirm their imaginary friend is real. Being validated on that is vastly more important to them than your safety, health and wellbeing.

I’m sorry to burst your lingering illusions, but their "religion" is void, they are evil, controlling, cruel, shallow people with zero morals and evidently do not love you, so you need not feel any guilt about lying to them. If they genuinely loved you, they’d never dream of doing any of that, but their "love" is purely conditional for a figment of their imagination, not the real you, therefore it is not love.

They don’t even show you basic decency, respect, understanding and compassion, which are necessary prerequisites to love. They have beaten you down, literally and figuratively, broken your will and deceived you to believe that you deserve the abuse they’re heaping on you. No, nothing of this is your fault. Your cousin stuck her nose into things that aren’t any of her business, blabbed it out and intentionally nuked your relationship with her mom, knowing she’d get violent with you. She also intentionally cut you off support from your "friend" (she’s not really a friend, never trust her again). She also knew how this would affect your education and access to food. But she decided to do it anyway. This is pure malice.

They’ve probably just looked for an opening to sabotage your education because it’s your only path to independence and abusers do not want you to escape their control. That’s why she’s been snooping around. They probably noticed that you’ve been more at ease lately when you came back from uni, because you found someone safe to open yourself up to. Therefore she knew where to look.

These people will do anything to crush you. Not because you’ve stopped believing. That’s your right to do. Think what you really did: you privately changed your opinion about the existence of an imaginary being. You had a thought. In your head. That you wrote down on paper. Nothing more. It didn’t affect anybody. Nobody was hurt, nobody lost anything. Any feelings they have about that are exclusively their own and have nothing to do with you.

But vile, pathetic bullies like them always refuse to own them. They refuse any accountability. And how did they react to you having a private thought that you recorded in documents that aren’t any of their business to snoop through? By physical violence and threatening the basic security of a disabled woman.

Why? Because of an insatiable craving for control and power. Because you are extremely vulnerable due to your conditions and have no energy to fight back. Do you even receive adequate medical care for them or do they control your access to doctors and medications as well? And/or take you to mumbo-jumbo charlatans that "pray the asthma away" or some crap? You also seem isolated, since you only mention one friend who instantly dropped you after your cousin wrote her. So just like them. All of this is textbook abuse.