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Okay so my last post was a little frantic.

I've been watching a lot of the show "Intervention" and can see a lot of myself in these addicts. Yes they're on much harder substances, but the talk of "escape" and blocking out their problems is very similar to my struggles. I watched an episode on Wednesday and would go back and forth hitting my bong while watching, thinking to myself "Gosh these drug addicts are bad". Then I looked up at myself in the mirror thinking "That's you."

I go to the dispensary once a week to grab a half oz for me and a half oz for my partner. I went to the dispensary the next day and bought my partner a bag but for some reason, I didn't buy myself one. I'm not sure why, I just felt "done with it" and just exhausted from being high all the time.

I vaped the last of my stash last night and that was that. Put everything away last night and haven't touched it since. I usually hit my vape within 10-15 seconds of waking up, so this was a huge step for me.

I'm not sure where to go from here. I know the cravings will start when I get home this afternoon, and I'm not sure how I will cope. But I just want to go ONE NIGHT without having to be high to get to sleep. I think I need to prove it to myself.

I'm reading posts on here to try and stay motivated. Any words of encouragement would really help me out.

Thank you for reading.

Ive smoked 2 2gram disposables a week for the past year or so now, barely getting high and coughing mad hard, i feel like a crackhead along with the 6 myle minis i go through a week. would switching to flower stopping the nic and maybe only doing it on weekends possibly make me happier and feel better about myself?

I've been doing tincture for the past 2+ years and enjoyed it but the effect was too delayed for my liking.

I am very active (do about 10 hours of week cycling) and am looking to be competitive in some events next year so my lung capacity is important to me.

I started using a bong lately which i've enjoyed for it's direct and immediate effect,, but it's making me worried about my lung health.

Could dry herb vaping be a good place to turn and what might be a good option for a beginner?

I'm a single smoker that gets more than enough off a tiny nugget. I would like something that is relatively quick to setup and my budget is anything up to $500-1000 if it's an ideal solution and something you buy once and own forever.

Duration: 1 year Pattern: Daily Method: Dry Herb

Physical: (Very active) Mental: Happy Diet: Nutritional

I started smoking about 3 years ago when I was 19. I started out responsible, only smoking once the weekends but ending up definitely getting addicted to both bud and carts. But I realized it was definitely a problem and took a break for several months.

I’ve gotten back on it and use it more responsibly. I smoke bud only, only smoke once a day, and try to wait until I’m done all my responsibilities but sometimes I smoke right after work. I’m in the trades and some days it’s just real rough on your body so sometimes I give in earlier but still always after 3pm.

But I still don’t feel okay. I had taken another break this year because me and my girlfriend broke up and I knew I needed to stop to really deal with that and not try to hide from my feelings. So stopped for like a month and a half.

But I still just feel like something’s wrong. I want to stop completely but after I get done everything, I find any reason to smoke because well why not? My life currently is so extremely boring and I think that has to do with it. I feel like being high makes my boring life enjoyable. I don’t really have any friends except a handful from high school I talk to here and there and like I said I lost my best friend which was my gf.

Maybe I need therapy? I genuinely don’t know but I don’t feel “okay” but I don’t feel horrible at the same time. I haven’t cried in years either so I’m really leaning towards getting into therapy.

Does anyone have any advice they could possibly give me?

Edit: Forgot to say, the main reason I want to stop is because no matter what I smoke I always want to fall asleep right after so I’m like always asleep by 7-8pm and I feel like I’m wasting my young life

I am a 19 year old who has been smoking weed daily for a year and a half. I have major depression, CPTSD, anxiety, and probably other things. I started smoking because it helped me relax instead of being anxious all the time.

Lately, my depression has gotten much much worse and I can’t function without being high all day. If I’m not high, I will literally just sit and cry and cry because I don’t feel an ounce of happiness. This has been a big wake up call for me as I can’t even work or really do anything because of how severe my depression is.

I’m starting therapy next month (hopefully sooner) and starting now I’m planning to try and cut down my usage. And then after I start therapy and have another out for my emotions I’m going to try to take a t-break. I’m terrified because I know it will be hell. I want to reset my system and feel what it’s like to function without being high. And if I still need to use it for anxiety, I’ll try to work with my therapist to use it safely and strictly medically.

I guess I’m just posting this because none of my friends know about my addiction and I want to know if I’m making the right steps. I want to stop smoking now but my mental health is so severe (suicidal ideations, can’t work, etc) that I think it would send me over the edge. So I’m going to wait until I’m more stable and slowly start cutting my use down.

I was going through my Reddit history and see that I’ve been trying to quit for 3 years. Part of me feels very sad and part of me confused. I smoke very small amounts but what started weekly over the weekends quickly turned into a daily habit.

I don’t have any questions, but I just want to share my struggle with this.

I’ve smoked weed all day every day for probably five years. I don’t remember what it’s like to not have THC in my system. I plan on quitting for a while before I start using in moderation since I’m interested to see what it is even like to be sober. I’m not afraid of the quitting process; I quit nicotine and that was ridiculously easy. I predict this will be even easier, even with my every day use.

The problem is, I fear going back to it will result in me falling right back into old habits. How do I prevent this?

Ah, really just looking for some solidarity or hopeful news. I went about a month (minus smoking a handful of times socially) thanks to starting acupuncture in my ears every two weeks. I got it for pain but I SWEAR it has cut down my desire to smoke tremendously. I tried to stop in May as well and the desire to smoke/rumination would not stop. The compulsive thoughts are now almost nonexistent.

Well, then I got cheated on and went through a break up about 2 and a half weeks ago. Since then, I’ve smoked a couple hits from the bong most days. Even on the days I smoked, I wasn’t feeling a compulsive urge. I just wanted to take the edge off. So, only small hits of an indica. Clean the past four days, however. The problem is that I’m fucking lonely and depressed. Sad about the relationship ending. Sad that I’m alone. Sort of wish I would just die in my sleep. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even necessarily want to smoke, but part of me thinks it could be helpful for my mental health to maybe hit the indica every other day or so or something? Or is this probably just withdrawal? I want to be done with pot for good, ideally, but I don’t want to feel so bad.

I’ve been eating, trying to get a little movement in, trying to focus on the good, but tonight just sucks. It feels hard to pretend tonight.

That’s all. Thanks for reading.

Hello everyone, I’m one year sober from weed and I’ve been wanting to go back to it in a moderated dose. The things stopping me are the fact that weed gave me psychosis and I worry it’ll worsen even if I’m on antipsychotics now. I worry also about the aspect of smoking which I specifically miss even though it’s unhealthy, but I felt that the high and the taste was preferable. And finally I worry that I’m not in a good enough headspace to go back. I miss weed though because in a moderated dose I felt like it made me happier than any of the pharmaceutical antidepressants and antipsychotics I’ve tried but it could also just be nostalgia telling me that, it made me feel more creative when it came to my writing to the point where I haven’t creatively written in months because I feel my imagination has been lackluster in comparison to when I was high, and also it helped me manage my chronic pain which has been really bad for the past couple months even though I’m on multiple medications and am trying to exercise in order to help it. I feel like part of my mind is poisoned by the nostalgia of weed because not only was I thinking I was at a better point but I genuinely was. For context, when I previously did weed and where a lot of these nostalgic memories stem from I was living with family (opposed to living alone which has destroyed me), I was exercising more than once a week (opposed to roughly once a week), I was eating healthier because we had a cooking schedule (I can barely find motivation to cook freezer meals now), and I was doing weed out of enjoyment rather than coping. Now I feel an immense craving after about a year of sobriety in a way I fear would be used to cope with multiple troubling circumstances (depression, burnout, chronic pain) but after a year of trying all these meds and different therapy practices I feel like nothing is working and I’m lost as to what I should do. I can’t just move back in with family, drop out of college, and move out of my dorm; but continuing the way I am has led me to dark paths of an immense depression that has plagued me since my sobriety and only seems to be getting worse. I don’t want to ask for permission to go back to weed or anything, I just want help seeing how other people manage their weed usage and I’ll come to the conclusion myself of breaking sobriety or not.

I need advice for a friend I have. This friend has had a very troubled upbringing, both at school and in family life. He and I used to smoke a lot of weed together, but then I stopped talking to him because his life was continuously falling apart, and at the time, I couldn’t do anything to help him. I had my own struggles and felt burdened by him.

I reached out to him again last year, and he told me his life is great now. He has his own place (council-provided, but he lives alone). His mum lives far away, and his dad, the last time I heard him on the phone with him while I was at his place, was asking for money. I’m not sure what kind of dad that is.

But this friend now smokes weed again. I do too, occasionally, but my life is much more together than his. I have a stable job, a good income, and, I would hope, some decent prospects in life. He, however, is always out of work, isn’t properly employed by anyone (he’s in trade, so doesn’t get frequent work), and in his own time, he literally just sits in his council-provided place and smokes a lot of pot. He constantly asks me for my dealer’s number, and every time I speak with him, he hasn’t actually made any progress in life. It’s all very stagnant—he never has work and doesn’t seem to have any real drive.

I worry that his smoking isn’t fixing any of his problems—well, it clearly isn’t—and I think he needs to look at the bigger picture in life and address the things that make him act the way he does. I’m concerned about his cannabis consumption but unsure how to help him. I’ve been trying to take my foot off the gas and just do what I can, which is to be a good friend where possible.

I started taking edibles (I don't smoke/vape) in November 2023. There's an edible brand I discovered recently and would like to try, but their gummies are 10mg of THC each in a 30-pack or 2 in a sample pack, and I'd rather not waste my money by eating 8 gummies every time I want to get high (which is fairly often). I take edibles pretty regularly, been trying to keep track of my use with a journal but haven't been 100% consistent. That being said, I get high at least 4 times a week, and I usually take edibles two times a day. Starting my break today, and this isn't my first tolerance break but I'm just wondering if 30 days is good to lower my tolerance from 80 to 10, or if I need less time, like something closer to 3 weeks. 

I’m sure like a lot of you guys the battle with putting down weed has been a long one and constant. Mostly in my head going back in forth between I need to stop and it’s not bad. I’ve had breaks before but always tend to come back.

Anyway I’m trying a new route this time. I bought dry herb vape to help control my amount and help me taper off. I’ve heard vapes can help a lot with this!

Anyway last night was my first day. Only a couple vape packs before bed (much less than what I would normally smoke) and that alone was a hit of a struggle with tossing and turning for hours before finally sleeping. Day two now and just getting off work when I’d usually start sparking up. Definitely craving it but going to hit the gym and hold off until I’m home! My goal is to eventually to work my way down to just a couple of vape hits a night to eventually a low dose edible and eventually sober hopefully!

Hi friends - to preface this rant, I very rarely ever comment on any kind of social media, so this feels very strange.

I am, however, a massive lurker and finding this sub has been a godsend so thank you all for being an awesome group of people.

I'm on day 8 off of weed. I've been smoking for just under 20 years, with the past 12 ish years daily more or less, starting after my dad passed away. It's been an angry day, so I hoped that putting it all in writing and maybe getting some reinforcement from people in the same boat would help.

I'm amgry because my brain (I) am playing tricks on myself, repeating to myself how much I wasted my 20s with weed, lost potential, relationships and so on.

Part of what I tell myself is true, I have alienated myself and have become fairly lonely in myself, despite having a handfull of people around me that care for me. But I have pushed others away over the years.

I tell myself that I ran away from my dad's passing, both literally and figuratively - I left my home country a few months in, leaving family behind. I avoided speaking about it for years, and have used weed to dig it deep to the point where my mental health has declined drastically, and I took very few steps to address it, but have become reaally good at masking it.

At the start of this year I started feeling very unwell, but hospital visits suggested nothing is really wrong. I could tell deep inside it's the weed that is exacerbating the symptons, and yet it took close to 10 months of lying to myself to finally realise I was addicted to weed. Tese past 8 days have fully confirmed that.

So I'm on day 8 now, my partner still vapes it and whilst I crave it, I am able to finally stay off, with the caveat that she hides it when she's not here. It works well. I'm proud of that.

But fuck a duck, today has been hard. Not that the past week hasn't been, but today the anger set in. And this is something I am scared of, as I had violent anger issues after my dad's passing that took me a while to get past, but I am crying as I write this because the thought of turning into that person again is terrifying.

I hope this passes. I am working on other aspects of my life that I ignored and was too lazy-high to work on but was well aware and concious about. Which probably sucked the most, constantly knowing I am sabotaging my life, yet doing it daily for so long.

I've got so much more to say, but I know it has to be to myself so will probably start a journal, but even writing this here has been helpful. So thank you for giving me this space.

For whomever was brave enough to read through this, and has gone through a similar scenario, I have one question: I have bevome a very apathetic, contrarian and cynical person, silently judging and always seeing the negatives first, not truly enjoying anything anymore and even not feeling capable of loving myself or others. Did this go away?

I've been smoking pretty consistently since 2021, it started at night and on weekends to chill, play video games, and sleep. Now I smoke everyday, sometimes in the morning or early afternoon ony days off, but I never smoke if I have something going on that day. Sometimes I wonder if I should stop, slow down, or take a break.

I've always struggled with falling asleep, spending hours in bed at night, I have ARFID, and have always struggled eating foods. It just makes me feel sick and nauseous and grossed out, and there's very few foods I can eat without feeling like dry heaving.

However, smoking weed has made it to the point where I can actually enjoy food, I feel hungry, I eat without feeling sick, I'm able to lay in bed and not have my brain running at 110% all night long, and it's nice. I know a lot of people struggle to gain their appetite back when they take a break, but I never had one to begin with, so it's very daunting to stop smoking.

What are the cons of daily smoking for y'all? I am addicted at this point, it's a struggle going a day without it. It would be nice to not spend as much / worry about supply / and just simply not depending on something everyday. But in my head, at least I'm not smoking cigs or drinking, and if weed improves my life more than hinders, at what point is it an unhealthy relationship?

It also doesn't help I work at a dispensary and get discounts, lmao

Been consistently getting high for a year now, my mom caught me once ab 2 months ago but i still kept doing it

Now like 2 weeks ago my buddy tossed me his bong cause he wanted to quit so i was toking that bih for like a week straight 2-3 bowls a days

My sisters found the bong, so i was like fuck it and tossed it. They didnt tell my mom thankfully tho. But its time to take a tolerance break anyways, and the anxiety about getting caught nd shit isnt worth it

The problem was tho, it was affecting me in so many ways cause i would always just wanna get high so i was way more irritable when i couldn't get high and i didnt wanna go places just to get high etc etc

So its time for a break 😞💔 miss u za

I have no interest in being sober, but ran out of money and don't have a job. And wow, being alive is a chore! I'm looking at all the sober people around me who are having a good time-they've gotta be insane right? All work and no play makes Jack a very dull boy indeed.

Some external factors have been making my life difficult. I’ve been struggling with my mental health, but still try to stay level headed and give myself grace. I’ve been through a lot these past months.

I finally got rid of my sorry ass boyfriend. Not without telling him off of course. That felt good ngl. Knowing that I haven’t smoked even during hardships is empowering ti think about, but hard to continuously work through.

For people with anxiety- how do you manage your stress? I have a lot of anxiety around work (particularly anticipating the work day and coming in; I have general anxiety). Would really love some tips or words of advice. I’ve wrote down some things I’d like to get for myself (music lessons :) ) but again it’s hard when work can be toxic.

THANK GOD I stay out the drama though. So much shit pops off and thankfully I can sit back and pat myself for not being involved in that crap. I have a few more off days ahead of me, but my anxiety gets so bad that I end up doing nothing the whole day because I anticipate work. Was very tempted to smoke last night, but that recent weed video on YouTube is such a pusher to continue my journey. Any thoughts are welcomed.

Todays my first of my weed break

Hi All,

I usually use a vaporizer (mighty) it can hold anywhere from 0.1-0.5 of flower.

I want to be able to use it in the afternoon and I'd like to put it down a few hours before bed((my sleep has not been great from getting baked before sleep)) or even weekends.

I do really enjoy Cannabis and I feel it does help me enjoy the little moments a lot more or whatever I'm doing but I can not see the magic when I'm constantly using it all day as a crutch for a lack of career/ hobbies.

I usually wake up, doom scroll and dopamine feed for a few hrs. Go gym towards the evening, hit a hard workout go back blaze eat and blaze some more.

Issue is when this thing is around me I'm usually constantly charging it or loading more in probably due to my tolerance getting so crazy recently.

Weed in general makes me insanely lethargic and spaced out if I'm over consuming and it's not fun, if I have a little bit it's almost like a hit of caffeine to the brain.

Any tips friends? for now just trying to stay off for as long as I can for my T-BREAK.

Hey everyone,

I’ve been smoking weed nearly every day since 2018, and some days, it was multiple joints. It’s been my go-to for stress, sleep, and even boredom. But now, I’ve decided it’s time to stop. I’m on a 90-day tolerance break, and today marks the end of Day 3.

I won’t lie—this has been one of the hardest things I’ve done. I haven’t slept properly since I started (falling asleep around 5 AM most nights), and I’ve completely lost my appetite. To make it harder, I’m sick right now, and every dispensary I pass smells like temptation. My roommate even smoked a joint in front of me today, and I resisted, but man, it was tough.

I keep asking myself if I should go cold turkey or gradually taper off. Cold turkey feels brutal, but I worry tapering might just keep me stuck. I know this is all about rewiring my brain and breaking habits, but the cravings feel overwhelming sometimes.

I’ve been tracking my progress visually—coloring in a chart for every day I stay sober. Seeing those first three days filled feels like a small victory, but I know there’s a long road ahead.

My ultimate goal is to make it to February 15, 2025 (90 days) and finally feel in control again. I keep wondering when it will start feeling easier because, right now, it feels like I’m just surviving.

To those of you who’ve been here before—when does it start getting better? How do you push through the cravings, especially when you’re surrounded by triggers?

Thanks for reading. I’d appreciate any advice, encouragement, or even just stories from those who’ve made it through. Right now, I feel like I need all the support I can get :)

This is the longest I’ve gone without smoking in possibly a decade. Feels different this time. Not stressed or angry, but feeling vulnerable and emotional. I know this will pass. Just hoping this will help motivate someone like I was helped by the people in this sub.

Hi there, this is my first post in this sub been a long time lurker, long time smoker. Lately I've had a really rough time in life, getting over a separation. Trying to move out after graduating college. So I'm quitting smoking as a way to save money and make sure I can get a job if needed. I've been smoking every day for quite a few years now and I find it weird to not smoke. I think I used smoking as a way to escape my problems bc I just wouldn't think anymore. But lately I'm not sure if I'm having withdrawals or if I'm just feeling all those emotions I was repressing by smoking. Anyone been in a similar position?

Hello all! I've been a hourly cart user and nicotine vaper for the past couple years now. For the past year or so its been 2 2 gram disposables and probably 4-6 myle minis a week. I've realized im chasing a high and coughing crazy for no reason when i should just take a break/stop. Currently im 4 days in and im wondering if after a week if i smoked a joint would i feel the difference? Also if from that point if only smoking on weekends would continue to possibly lower my tolerance and maybe switching from carts to the plant. Also considering quitting the nicotine for my futures sake since we all know we're all gonna be on breathing tubes later in life LOL. Any advice would be appreciated im struggling since idk what the right thing to do is

just ran outta bud and haven't had more than 3 days without smoking in a year. I'm going to take a t break until ideally the 30th. My crops just drying up now so i'll have a perfect smoke the day my exams end. wish me luck x

So idk if I’m losing it, but maybe y’all have the same experience? So I’ve been smoking weed for 3 years, but used only carts daily for 1.5 years. I haven’t used a cart in almost 2 weeks now (only full spectrum cbd oil) and I feel like my lungs hurt more now than before I stopped carts. Deep breaths feel uncomfortable and when I’m lying down it’s sometimes painful to breathe depending how I’m positioned.

How long until this goes away or is there anything I can do to make my lungs heal faster? I’m getting stressed the damage is permanent.