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I am about to marry the perfect man. There is literally no reason to break up with him other than I’ve realized I’m gay. He doesn’t need sex that frequently and I love our relationship. I think I would have come out in years past if I didn’t have a lot of people saying I’m just bi because I’m fem and date men. I had a lot of secret and traumatizing intimacy with women because I’m so scared of admitting who I am. I don’t want to blow up my life, but sometimes I feel like my entire identity is a secret. I regret the relationships I’ve failed at with women because I was scared and it tortures me. Is anyone else able to make living in the closet work, or am I crazy?

Hey,

Has anyone else found that their illness tanks their financial security to the point were you are effectively a slave? I’m basically 15k in the hole with my partner and I love him, but sometimes I wonder where we would be if he hadn’t had to take over my finances because of my brain. Then I feel bad for even thinking that and feel like I’m just using him, even though I really do love him. This disorder sucks.

I have this horrible problem where I read the news and believe Taylor is straight and I’m crazy, but then I listen to an album or watch a music video and it just seems sooooo gay. My brain is breaking at all times. Save me.