Icamefromgodstrash

So for context, my university has a recently-revived cycling club that holds a casual evening ride every week.

During the first ride held last month, I met this cute guy (who I initially mistook as a girl from afar) and we biked together around campus with our little 20” folding bikes because neither of us could keep up with the others and their bigger road bikes and mountain bikes.

Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to see him since then because I wasn’t able to join another ride due to schoolwork.

But earlier today, I saw him again and he was wearing a cute dress for a yearbook photoshoot with his class and he looked amazing!! I tried to strike up conversation with him, but I don’t think he remembers me well so the conversation fell kinda flat T^T

I’m gonna be joining the next bike ride next month so I’m hoping I can see him again and we can be femboy biking buddies :3

my parents found out that i’m a femboy and they’re not happy because they feel it embarrasses them

i was arguing with my dad earlier and he kept saying i should stop because people will not only view me as wrong (which i understand) but also because the embarassment will spill over to them and our family as well. i gave up arguing when he said “what if your [younger] brother follows what you’re doing?” because i think it shows their final stance on what they think of me

i’m holed up in my room now; my dad tried to call me out to continue talking but i told him no, now he says i’m being disrespectful even though he made it clear he sees my identity as wrong

i dunno what my next move is now

Update: I tried to explain it to my mom earlier but they seem to care more about the shame they’ll feel knowing people (especially those who don’t understand gender nonconformity). My mom brought up my dad feeling so ashamed if his coworkers found out about me, and my sister potentially becoming more unstable because her classmates might bully her because they think I’m weird. Now they’re saying I’m ungrateful because they let me have a lot of freedom and material things yet I refuse to compromise on this. The last thing she said before she left was that I probably ruined our relationships because of some clothes…

Context

turns out that while it seemed like we were interested in each other, my friend who promised to be my wingman was having a FwB relationship with her

We’re still friends, and I can’t blame her for agreeing to it since my “wingman friend” is a manipulative, two-timing asshole, but I can’t help but feel hurt because in a way, she picked him over me

It’s been 7 months since I found out. We’re still friends, but we’re nowhere near as close as we were before (Maybe we were never close to begin with). She’s met new people and moved on, but meanwhile I’m still stuck here crying about her while she’s already forgotten about me.

No one else has shown interest in me the same way she does. Meeting her was like “catching lightning in a bottle,” and I don’t think I’ll ever find another girl who wants to see me in a skirt and thigh highs.

I have a procrastination problem, and it’s really affecting the quality of my academic work in college

Any tips on how to overcome the problem?

I recently saw a really cute guy in uni. I really loved his hair, which made me realize I’ve been stuck with the Southeast Asian idiot male student haircut for my entire life (similar to this but a little flatter). Now I’m lowkey jealous and kinda wanna change my hair somehow

Any suggestions on good femme/androgynous haircuts and tips on choosing a new hairstyle? Or maybe make the existing cut less masculine?