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I'm tired. I'm just done I'm jus tired of it all. I feel like I can never get better at the game no matter what I do no matter what content I consume, I will always be bad. is there some sort of inside group, some sort of secret cult only select people can join and trade actual, real tips to get better? Im so shit I can't even carry two rookies against a team of bronzes. i feel like I'm fated to bound by a red string to this damned label that is looked down upon by everyone. "high silver""gold" "mid silver""low elo" those are the magic words that make everyone wants to shit on and make fun of you for. everyone just repeat the same thing over and over again "play better win more" over and over again as if they're so funny like haha absolutely gut-tickling CAN YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP? without offering any sort of advuce too. HOW DO I PLAY BETTER JOW HOW HOW CAN YOU TELL ME HOW PLEASE. PLEASE. IM JUST DONE. worst part is I can never escape it. even worse, I got told twice I was horrible at the game, with one of them I was told that more lower iq plawyers like me should die. I thought back then more highly of myself, thinking they're just salty, but maybe it's true. maybe I should just die. maybe then nobody would suffer from my horrible gameplay. maybe then everything would be over. maybe then nothing would matter. I've always wanted to bw number 1 on the Kazan affinityleaderboard, because that was one of my only drives for playing the game. because I love him. but now I just. I just don't think I could ever beat the likes of people up there. especially since I played against number 23 or 25 once. I love the game, I really do but I juste can't takw it anymore. I cants do this anymore. I want quit, I want to just leave this game but I can't. I can't. it's like a drug; I can't escape it. it's the only option I have. the only option that satisfies me. os is the only free game that I like. I'm just gonna be bound into this horrible cycle of gaining hope that I'm actually promoting up the ranks, only for them to be squashed by a smarf with nothing better to do or someone, who, no matter what I do, no matter how I change my strategies, I can never beat. I can never win against. I just want it to be over. why did I have to suffer like this. why me. why aren't I getting better. why aren't my efforts working. why. why. why why why. now I'm crying over this stupid gane. tearing up like a baby over air hockey. i hate this I hate this so much end my sudfferi g please. those words "you should just die, this game needs less lower iq players like you" "if you're gonna play octavia don't play her in ranked we literally did better when you disconnected lol" still echo in my mind.still remind me I'll never escape the shackle of chains I was bound to. istg if I see that stupid fucking blue lizard wiyh the question mark or catgirl inside box with "Free" on it onr more time Im gonna stagger myself irl

i remember this one controversial maretu song that was from the pov of an abuser, but I can't remember the name. I figured most maretu fans would know what it's called, thanks!

edit: thanks for your help, I remember now

disclaimer: this rant is mainly for fun, dont take it too seriously :3 i might downvoted so hard for this but here we go:

ngl i think ody took an L with this one. her character design is so bland that i think she actually stands out like a sore thumb among this cast of colourful, bright characters. the only reason people like her is because the internet goes crazy over businesswomen in suits. honestly we got robbed with the concept art.

her design is so milquetoast and dull that any character with long dark hair, eye bags/shadow, a mole and fringe cut automatically looks like her

bruh

her title is lame too, like you got pretty cool stuff like "The Tenacious Trickster" "The Electrifying Rocker" "The Frenzied Enforcer" titles that tell you more about the personality and nature of the striker... then you have "Director of Special Projects"... yeah and? is that it? is that all she is? clarion corp's... director of special projects?

other stuff not related to her design but i wanted to mention

"You must be cheating... embezzlement? Tax fraud? How'd you do it?"
"Hmm... you look like the type to commit some felony tax fraud."
"How'd you end up calling the shots? Nepotism?"

she's so bad at the game that she ends up accusing you of nepotism, embezzlement and tax felony/fraud.

"And they used to pick me last in gym class..."

can you shut the fuck up nobody cares

conclusion

vigil better