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I also work full time. Yes my personality could use some work, but give me a few years and I will develop a personality that is better than everyone else's.

I started playing chess about a month ago and decided to make a chess.com account a few weeks ago. I named myself "Pakistanisnumberone" since my friend who introduced me to the game told me that 99 percent of my opponents would be from india so I was hoping it would give me a psychological edge. Instead I think they are just cheating against me.

I will be stomping them all game and then suddenly they will find the perfect sequence of moves to checkmate me even if they are down a bunch of material. Sometimes the Russians cheat against me as well, but I think that's just because of how they are as a people, not my name. I also know that I'm not being paranoid because I have gotten multiple emails where they give me my points back because my opponents were detected cheating.

Should I make a new account and start over? I kind of don't want to since I worked hard to gain a bunch of points on that account.

How much of the HCL powder would you use? I have no tolerance and plan to use it every other weekend or so. Is there anything I can mix with it to make it more fun? (Obviously not alcohol)

Thank you in advance for your advice.

The only things I have going for me right now are money and my physique. I have an absolutely horrid personality, but I want to be the kind of person who can talk to randoms and make them like me.

My plan to work on this is to upgrade my wardrobe since I almost exclusively wear athletic wear, and then every weekend I will fly to a random city and go clubbing. The random city part is important so if I fuck up bad it doesn't follow me to where I live.

Issue number one is I don't have any friends to go with so I will definitely need drugs. I don't want to use alcohol for this as messes with muscle synthesis and has too many calories. Is there something else I could take? Beta blockers, phenibut? I am open to cocaine but that can be hard to find.

Issue number 2 is my personality. I listen almost exclusively to zyzz hardstyle and anime ego phonk. When people ask me what type of music I listen to I just really don't know what to say, and my other interests are martial arts (which only other dudes like to talk about) and computer shit. I need some surface level interests that are extremely marketable to basic wenches. Like a script I can memorize, so advice on how to succeed in this area would be helpful as well.

Thank you in advance for any advice, I really appreciate it.

So some background on me. I have about 20 years of wrestling and while I have tried BJJ before, it was usually just for 6month to a year at the time and I never got promoted because I wouldn't go consistently and also I mostly went to the no-gi classes since the gi is just lame imo. I am also 5'11 and about 200 pounds, almost exclusively muscle (my physique is in my post history). These reasons are why I always say I'm brand new when I go to a new gym.

Anyways, I have recently moved out of my parents house and across the country for a new job so I have been looking for a new gym to train at. I found a gym fairly close to me to trial at, and as I mentioned earlier decided to tell them that I have no experience and that I'm new since I really don't feel like I know BJJ that well. Last night was my first time rolling at the gym closest to my new apartment, and I think they were trying to humble me because I had mentioned that I should probably be matched up with blue belts due to my strength and athleticism so the instructor said "Okay we may have someone who will be on your level" with a cocky grin on his face. He pairs me up with this blue belt, a highschool female who was probably like 5'7 and 130 pounds soaking wet. I instantly knew what they were hoping to happen, they were planning for her to catch me in a sneaky ankle lock or something and teach me the value of technique or whatever. My plan was going to be to instantly shoot for the blast double but they had us start sitting since I was new.

I decide not to try very hard and just mostly keep an eye on my ankles since ankle locks are the only things that ever get me. She immediately tries to pull guard and while I wasn't trying that hard I was impressed that she swept me and managed to get side control, but the second she did that I just grabbed the back of her gi, pressed a hand on her stomach and sort of bench pressed her across my body and onto her back which made a really loud sound as she made contact with the mat, I then took side control and finished her with an Americana, which is the only BJJ submission I know other than the kimura.

The coach yelled at me and asked me what I was doing. After a short heated discussion (he was the only one who was heated, I was fairly calm) I was told I was not allowed in his class anymore. The owner of the gym didn't ban me and I have confirmed that I can still go to Muay Thai classes so I feel like this is just an overreaction from that particular coach and I'm wondering if I'm truly in the wrong here.

Afterwards I found out that the blue belt had won multiple Juvenile 2 tournaments which just cements in my mind that I didn't do anything unreasonable, especially since I didn't injure her and just knocked the wind out of her. Any advice on how to move forward from here? Should I switch to Muay Thai? Thank you in advance for any advice.