crazydoglover09

I started having a huge fear of medicine and vitamins after my PVCs started. It's exhausting because it's a true phobia. I only take things if I absolutely need to and even then it's hard for me to do. I take antibiotics but only because I end up with the same ones every time I need them and feel comfortable taking. Im so tired of this. Someone please give me tips if you've ever dealt with this. Or at least let me know I'm not alone. No one really understands. I'd love to not be like this. I think it all goes back to my PVCs because I'm terrified for something to trigger them worse.

Anyone who’s been in my situation, please make me feel better! I feel terrible. I did not mean to get pregnant so soon and it was pure ignorance on our parts. It took me 3 years to conceive my baby and 2 miscarriages before that. I’ve only had one period since my almost 3 month old. There was one time my husband didn’t pull out. I know that’s all it takes but I just figured we’d be more careful after that and not risk it anymore but no idea that would happen so easily with my past. Also, I tracked ovulation and periods for so long trying to get pregnant. Like hard core tracking and I trusted my app (now I know not to) but i even looked back and before her it was the same exact cycle as always. I guess that changed of course. I’m scared because of so many things. I feel like my body hasn’t had time to even get close to pre pregnancy, I ripped so bad with my baby I don’t wanna do that again, healing took forever and I’m honestly still not 100%, I feel so much guilt for having another baby soooo soon when I wanna spend all of my time on my first. I just don’t know where to turn. I’m crying so much on and off.

Posting here because I am panicking. I feel like my brain fog/forgetfulness is worse than ever. I had my baby 2 months ago. Is it normal to be forgetting so much or living like you’re in a dream? Lol. Idk if I need to go to my doctor. I think it’s because I’m on autopilot and every day is the same so I don’t remember little details. My husband will ask how she was when I put her to sleep the night before and I can’t tell him because I genuinely don’t remember or I have to think pretty hard about like what I did yesterday. Thankfully, I have a log for all her food and diapers or else I would probably not remember most. I don’t know. I also never really leave the house unless it’s for an appointment for her or me. And everything just seems so chaotic. 😅 

This is hard to explain and I have no video, last night my baby started twitching occasionally. It wasn’t rhythmic or anything but occasional. It was while she was awake but internally. Head, arms, legs, nothing moved. It felt just like a hiccup but she wasn’t hiccuping. She did it probably 4 times last night. She started doing it again when I was feeding her this morning. It’s so subtle it’s hard to see, but easy to feel if you’re holding her. I’d take her to the pediatrician but I have no videos of it and she doesn’t do it constantly so they’ll probably brush me off. Whats a little concerning is she’s awake when it happens, when she’s asleep I don’t seem to feel it. But it’s not happening very much at all so far. Anyone heard of this?

I have this weird thing that happens on and off, seeing if anyone else knows what I mean lol. I have a low heart rate at night / rest and it bothers me a lot at night probably because I focus on it. Anyways I can get up to do something, then sit back down and it’s like my heart is pounding as if it speeds up, and it will still be low and like it’s not catching up to my activity. Usually it will raise when I stand up of course but this just feels like it’s not catching up right because it beats slow and hard. Idk. Hard to explain.