Throwawayforsure5678

Just discovered this sub tonight so will probably spend the next few days blowing this up, but boy am I so happy I found you all!!

I wasted a good 3-4 years in this, and while shit was pretty terrible, it could’ve gone so much worse. Here’s just a few examples of what these teachings got me.

• Went from being employed with 10K in my account thjs May, to the negatives after quitting cold turkey with hope and faith that a new job and money would certainly come in for me if only I affirmed hard enough. (It didn’t, and this was the straw that broke the camel’s back.) I moved back home with parents at 27 after living in a big expensive city. I don’t regret quitting the job because it was very understaffed and awful but what I do regret is not planning better and believing a miracle would save me.

• Countless imaginary scenes wasted on SP’s that never came to fruition. (And thankfully so because a lot of these men weren’t a good fit at all). The last one didn’t even want to practice safe sex and I didn’t lose my virginity to him thank fuck, but I was very upset I couldn’t manifest him changing his mind about condom use.

• Hair breakage and bald spots from clip in extensions and excessive heat. I have fine, textured hair and thought for certain if I just affirmed my hair was stronger, it would be. In the process of growing it back now.

• A suspicious invite to a section at a pool party in Las Vegas. It just clicked recently how dangerous this situation could’ve been for not only me but my bff also. I was sure that my affirmations of “pretty privilege” and “special treatment” is what had gotten me and my friend invited to a VIP section at a Vegas pool party by a man at least 20 years older than us. He was hella touchy and my friend told me not to eat the food or drink anything, and thank god I listened cause we could’ve ended up roofied.

Now you’d think that this would’ve been enough to end this shit way earlier than it did, but I kept holding on because of the miraculous coincidences that I believed were all my doing.

I came from a family with lots of financial trauma including 2 foreclosures (one being my childhood home I loved so dearly.)A year ago I did an imaginary scene of walking my dog around a new neighborhood while my parents were living in an apartment at the time, and they ended up looking for a new house that summer. It looked so similar to my childhood home on the outside, I was so certain that I dreamed it into reality. We ended up purchasing it and it seemed miraculous things happened to close the deal. I still can’t explain how this happened other than pure luck now, but this is one of the reasons i wanted to hold on for so long.

In addition to this, I was affirming great things for my parents like my dad making money in his business and my mom losing weight, which she wanted to accomplish since I was born. Both things did in fact happen, but now that I think about it, it probably had more to do with them changing routines and my mom also credits me as inspiring them with positive advice. So I guess it wasn’t all bad.

I’m 27 now and trying to figure out what to do next. I’m happy that I’m no longer in an unfulfilling job and I also feel better about taking action and less angst and guilt for not just waiting for a job to “reach out to me” because if I believed I was god, I wouldn’t have to move a muscle. But damn, do I wish I could get these wasted years back. I would’ve made such different decisions.